Crying Is The Best Medicine?

I think crying make me feel better. Crying and me, cannot be separated. When I have some problem, I may cry a lot. When I sick, I cry. I cry in all matters. I am such a sensitive person. So, no wonder if I cry easily.


I don't know what is going on right now. It's such a complicated situation and I don't know how to handle it. I don't have the strength.


But, now.. I'm going to smile and make you think I'm happy. I'm going to laugh, so you don't see me cry. I'm going to let you go in style. And even if it kills me- I'm going to smile.

Closed For Maintenance!

Sorry! I had closed the door upon my heart and wouldn't let anyone in.

I had trusted and loved only to be hurt. But, that would never happen again. I had locked the door and tossed the key. As hard, and as far as I could. Love would never enter there again. My heart was closed for good.

Tapi, tak mustahil suatu hari nanti ia akan terbuka kembali. And I'm not sure when and how the door will open again. Just wait and see.

Tak tahu kenapa tiba-tiba nak post entry sebegini. Agaknya mungkin sebab chat dengan mamat entah berasal dari ceruk mana entah dekat FB tadi kot. He asked me whether I ever fall in love or not? Why I don't want to get involved in love? Lelaki yang macam mana yang aku inginkan dan banyak lagi soalan yang dia tanya until I get annoyed with him. Seriously, sangat annoying.

Lepas tu tiba-tiba nak cakap aku cute lah apa lah.

Kau ingat aku cute sangat ke weyh? Nak tahu betul ke tidak, jom jumpa aku! HAHA. Please laa, jangan percaya sangat dekat pictures yang ada dekat FB tu. Don't trust the pictures. You may see me absolutely lain sangat. Tak seperti dalam gambar.

The conclusion is.. jumpa depan-depan, baru judge. Baru boleh nak kata cute ke, lawa ke atau sebaliknya. I don't care.

Forget about love. Forget about everything. I have to focus in my study.

K.A.W.A.N

Kawan By Ruhil

Kawan.. apa erti sayang

Jika hati tak senang

Kawan.. apa erti kasih

Jika kau tersalah pilih

Kau.. pandai bercerita

Surat panjang berjela

Kita tak pernah bersua

Aku tak suka bercinta

Apakah ertinya ini

Mengganggu akal dan hati

Lupakan saja, lupakan diriku

Kita di bangku sekolah lagi...

Hei! Jangan buang masa

Dengan berkhayal saja

Kawan lihat masa depan

Masih jauh di hadapan

Hei! Jangan main api

Nanti membakar diri

Ilmu harus kita cari

Kelak kita takkan rugi

Saje nak letak lirik lagu kawan..

Aku ada ramai kawan. Kawan baik ramai. Tapi kawan rapat, susah nak cari. Boleh beza tak kawan baik dengan kawan rapat?


For me, kawan baik memang senang nak cari. Mereka memang baik dengan kita. Boleh diharap. Tapi susah untuk stick dengan mereka ni. Susah untuk share problem dengan mereka. Kawan baik, memang mereka sentiasa bersama kita.. 24 hours, maybe. But, mereka belum tentu dapat memahami kita sebagaimana kawan rapat memahami kita. That's why I prefer to choose 'kawan rapat' untuk share problem as they do understand me and know me better than 'kawan baik'.